So You Had A Bad Day....

Today was one of those days where nothing seemed to go right. It started with the bad news I received last night: my uncle is in the hospital. He's unconscious and they're not sure what's causing it. That said, I already began my day on a stressed-out note. As an update, he's showing some response now, so that's a positive sign, but it's still touch and go.

Meanwhile, I went to work and it seemed to be business as usual, only I'm awaiting an imporant e-mail with information that I absolutely have to get in tomorrow (and it still hasn't arrived). But as I was sitting and working, I got a note from my boss that scolded me for playing with a video game during office hours.

Just to clarify, I work really hard and am not playing games all day. But when I'm talking on the phone with a source for a long time or just need five minutes to get over some writers' block, I like to play this mindless game called Eggz. It helps me clear my head or gives me something to do with my free hand while I'm on the phone. But I get all of my work in on deadline and have a reputation in the office for being reliable.

My boss's issue wasn't with my performance. She was actually very nice about it and joked that she's addicted to the game, too, but feared that corporate would see me playing it and not think I was busy enough. I promised to stop and apologized, feeling like a child who's been caught with her hand in the cookie jar. The thing is, my boss is almost never in my area; we always go to her office for meetings. This means that someone ratted me out. And THAT pisses me off. I'll agree, I probably should've thought twice about going onto a recreational site at my job, but you don't go tattling to the boss if no one is getting hurt. It seems so petty. I know plenty of "wrong" things my co-workers do -- like getting smashed at what are supposed to be professional events, for one -- and I don't go around blabbling. I have an idea of who the culprit is, though I'll never be able to prove it. Let's just say that karma has a way of biting people in the butt.

Later that day, my suspect threw a hissy fit over the edit I did on her file. The sentence made no sense; it was clearly missing a word. She was all pissy and huffy, though, at the change. Whatever...

Finally, I had an interview which pissed me off to no end. I had to speak with a well-known professional matchmaker about her service, which I was excited about. She was very vulgar -- as she's known to be -- but she also made some cracks about how she didn't know how this "fucking fat" woman could have men interested. Excuse me! First of all, the "fucking fat" woman in question is over 50 and maybe 20 pounds overweight. Second, she's attractive, even with the extra pounds. Plus, she's successful and vivacious and funny. No, she's not a beauty queen, but how many of us are? As I've said over and over again in this blog, I HATE the idea that some think that overweight people aren't deserving of love or attention. I realize that complaining about it isn't going to change people's perceptions, but it still bothers me. I hope that if -- no when -- I lose weight, I remember this and take it with me. I used to be prejudiced and think that overweight people were "less than" and it makes me ashamed to know that I shared opinions with the likes of this person. In some ways, gaining weight has made me a more compassionate person, I think, because I now understand both sides.

Speaking of which, I've been doing well with my eating this week. I've been having a lot of fruits and veggies, and have ben cutting out starchy things like white bread. I'm feeling a lot more energized, I have to say. Today I was especially energized since anger and frustration tend to do that to me.

Tomorrow we're supposed to have another blizzard, which means I'll probably be working from home. I'm going to think good thoughts about my uncle and try to stay positive about my job and the year ahead. My work may be frustrating at times, but I'm in a place where I now have several backup ideas in my arsenal. No, I haven't lost the weight in the past year, but I'm in a much better place.